TELL HIM !

If you see him
Tell him I forgave him
For being careless with my heart
Long gone are the days when my heart
When my heart beat only for him

If you see him
Tell him he can move on
I hold nothing against him
Long gone are the days of torment
And torturous were the nights
When I lay awake thinking about him

If you see him
Tell him I moved on
Long gone are the days when
He had a hold on me & the pain
The pain of losing him was more than
It was more than I could bear but I moved on

If you see him
Tell him I am happy
Tell him I hope he is happy
Long gone, are the days when
Life without him was a misery
And I hoped he’d come back & try again
He didn’t, I hurt, I cried, I moved on & I’m happy

If you see him
Tell him I’m glad he didn’t come back
I wanted him to, but he’d have broke my heart
Like so many times before, that I got used to it
I got so used to the pain, ’twas normal I thought
And I almost missed it

If you see him
Tell him I am grateful for the lessons
Long gone, are the days, they’re gone
The days of wondering what I could have done
To make him stay, but I’m glad he’s gone
He left me & I learnt

If you see him
Tell him it is him
That he taught me what love is not
I learnt what love is, when I found it
Had he come back, I could have missed it
He didn’t come back & I’m glad he didn’t
I would have missed it

If you see him
Tell him not to worry about the children
The children found love, & they are fine
Gone are the days, when they asked about him
Not any more, they moved on & they’re fine
I worry not about childcare on my own
Not anymore, I am not alone

If you see him
Tell him we are fine
He chose a life without us & it’s fine
We hurt for a bit, but now we are fine
We moved on without him, we are fine
We hope he moves on
We hope he is fine

If you see him
Tell him that he found me
The one who sees me & he adores me
Long gone, are the day when I felt sorry for me
I wondered if anyone would ever love me
He found me & he loves me

If you see him
Tell him, the one who found me
Found us & when he did, he found them
He found the shoes that he threw at me
The one who loves me found them
He fell for me, when he found them
He wore them, they fit & he kept them on
In those shoes, he loves & cares for me

If you see him
Tell him I hope he found someone
Because we did, tell him we found the one
Long gone, are the days of being alone
He found us & we found him
The one whose arms
We call home

©️ C Akui 2020/11/30

#Carolsinsights #ThatAfricanGirlPoetry

Image c/- Google for illustration

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